Let the Tower fall....I'll still be standing!

deadly_asp @ 2009-10-31T15:28:00

2009-10-31T04:30:29Z

Balance, I need to find my balance again, I've been with him for so long I cant remember how to portion out my life without him in it. Routine is a bitch I guess, my life's been turned upside down and I need to re-sort the pieces, and It's proving a daunting task.

Job starts Monday, both nervous and excited.

Been trying to force myself back into writing and drawing, I miss being creative.

Here is to almost 2 years of the truest happines I have ever known.

2009-10-18T11:53:17Z

"Someone Wake Me Up"

We got the same friends
We're gonna have to see each other eventually
So won't you tell me how we're gonna deal with that
(how we're gonna deal with that, how we're gonna deal with that)
My CD's are at your place
And you know I'm gonna have to pick 'em up
So won't you tell me how we're gonna deal with that
(how we're gonna deal with that, how we're gonna deal with that)

Even though it was mutual, it still kills inside
'Cause for so long, how I've been defined

It feels just like I'm going crazy
I guess that this is breaking up
And now not even you can save me
Will someone wake me up?
(Someone wake me up)
Never thought that we'd go under
I guess we won't be making up
And if this is a dream I wonder,
Could someone wake me up?
(Someone wake me up)

I still have your old shirt
You know the one I said I'd thrown away?
I put it on when I went to bed last night
(I went to bed last night, I went to bed last night)
Baby, is this where our story ends
When I turn out the light
Fantasy and reality fight

It feels just like I'm going crazy
I guess that this is breaking up
And now not even you can save me
Will someone wake me up?
(Someone wake me up)
Never thought that we'd go under
I guess we won't be making up
And if this is a dream I wonder,
Could someone wake me up?
(Someone wake me up)

Someone wake me up

Even though it's over now, it still kills inside
'Cause for so long you have been my life

(Someone wake me up, someone wake me up)

It feels just like I'm going crazy
I guess that this is breaking up
And now not even you can save me
Will someone wake me up?
(Someone wake me up)
Never thought that we'd go under
I guess we won't be making up
And if this is a dream I wonder,
Could someone wake me up?
(Someone wake me up)

oh, baby you were my first time
I will always keep you inside

(Someone wake me up, someone wake me up)
Someone wake me up
(Someone wake me up, someone wake me up)
Someone wake me up

deadly_asp @ 2009-10-07T14:08:00

2009-10-07T03:15:46Z

Well, I ended up taking a course in I.T Network Management, Which I may have to bail out of and return to next year. Money issues are getting very dire, so as much as I don't wish to, I may have to fall on my Hospitality background again. Have an interview in two and a half hours at a cafe that is opening literally five minuets from the house. (Next to Sprinkles Pizza for those of you near me)

Still with the wonderful Mikey, almost two years now. Trippy huh?

Hhhmm..other than that not much has changed, I kinda been floating in a state of static routine...which to be honest depresses me.

Writer's Block: Apology Not Accepted

2009-05-20T15:08:23Z

Have you ever refused to accept someone's apology, or had your own apology rejected?

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Yes......

See, I posted! Stop nagging already woman!

2009-05-19T06:15:40Z

Moved back to Carnegie, and I don't actually mind that much, I love the area, I have heaps of fun with the guys/katie and I know Mikey dosen't like being at his parents, but at least he's studying and we're not tripping over each other everyday, so it could be worse, he could be in Japan still!

Been throwing together some random writing lately, nothing worth presenting, it's still mostly in my incredibly vacant skull. I'm slowly getting back into the habit of earlier years *cough*uni*cough* where I usually tried to write at least something everyday. Keep an eye out for something soon, I swear I'll put something random up.

As for employment *sigh* I only really have one thing to say on the matter

FUCKING FUCK THE COCKING TWATFLAP HOSPITALITY BULLSHIT

Yeah I don't mind making coffee, fuck, I downright enjoy it sometimes, but the industry is bullshit, the job market is horrible, and everybody wants FASTER, and BETTER, no matter how good you actually are, they want better. To be honest I'm sick of being told the job skill I have been training, improving, and working on very hard for the past oh, lets see, SEVEN YEARS, is not good enough compared to some cocking wanker in Hugesdale who has only JUST completed a six day short course!

AAAAAAAANYWAY

I've been looking into other areas that either corrospond to my actual degree, or interest me in general, heres some thing I came up with

Pathology (Bloodtaking etc) - I'm in there often enough! (Pity the consession price of the course is eighteen hundred dollars!)

Desktop Publishing - I touched on it a little back at Uni, I didn't mind it. Sent away for some info on a Graphic Design and Desktop Publishing course

Ok, and dont laugh....Interior Design....Which interests me, but its very expensive and a saturated market...and I'd more only want to do things I personally like, so I'd be fucked.

If anybody even reads this anymore, send in your votes or suggestions, what do YOU think I should be doing???

Writer's Block: How Soon Is Now?

2009-03-31T01:59:45Z

What scientific or medical breakthrough do you most want to happen in your lifetime?

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Thats easy, hands down, a cure for the virus

deadly_asp @ 2009-02-28T12:10:00

2009-02-28T01:10:37Z

What type of Fae are you?

~twitch~ Two ~twitch~ freaking ~twitch~ Days

2009-02-27T03:44:05Z

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147 days down, 10 to go, and I feel like my BRAIN IS EXPLODING

2009-02-19T11:17:33Z

Bond stuff is pretty much sorted. Yay.

Now just need to find a way to actually MOVE.

Spent the day mostely chilling out with Tom, got a iced coffee, were major nerds talking about D&D for hours.

Chris has gastro or something similar, poor guy.

Muuuuuuust geeeeeet joooooob

Spent yesterday hanging out with Jo, poor woman. Kids to feed wedding in a few weeks, she got fired by the c*nts at Brown Bean, the owners are selling her house, her loan was denyed and so were the credit cards.

Not much else going on, still got a creative block (Nothing New)

Fuck I just want to sleep the next ten days so that BAM he's home >.<

15 freaking days!!!!

2009-02-14T02:10:13Z

It's Valentines day today, and without Mikey here I just don't see the point in marking the day, so screw it.

Had an appointment with my hospital social worker yesterday, and saw the ID clinic's dietitian as well.

My social worker is trying all she can to find a way for me to cover the bond on the new place, the stress is making my health far worse (or so my doctor says) and with a condition like mine I cannot afford to let my otherwise adequate health slip one bit!

My dietitian was NOT impressed when we went through and defined my eating habits and diet. I'm now on strict orders to define regular eating times and sleeping times, and I quote "You've lost almost ten kilos in a month, if you don't do this and start gaining it back, I WILL admit you here and put you on a strict diet" I would really rather NOT go back into hospital for who knows how long, So I'm gonna do what she has suggested *cough* ordered *cough*

One of those being powdered milk, its cost effective and surprisingly, doesn't taste too bad if you make it up in advance like I did.

I find myself focusing more and more on the Fires destroying who knows how many peoples homes since my own sister and nieces lost everything in the fires. I know my sister Julie and I have never really seen eye to eye, but shes still my sister.

The move is coming nearer and gets more complicated every freaking day, I simply DON'T know where I am going to find this extra bond money, the stress keeps me up at night. No loan officer in their right mind would give an unemployed student a loan of any description, and if it is not done soon, Mikey and Meg will be on the streets. I don't care if that is where I end up, I've been there numerous times, but I flat out refuse to drag Mikey down with me, he deserves better.

With all this shit happening I can even bring myself to study, I just cannot concentrate on it no matter how much I know I should.

Well, might as well do some cleaning, my room is horrible.

deadly_asp @ 2009-02-10T12:43:00

2009-02-10T01:44:48Z

I should of known was all too good to be true, consider the other shoe dropped and me up shit creek

21 days

2009-02-08T03:14:17Z

http://twobluecrabs.com/?p=189

Two Blue Crabs has the highest concentration of WIN I have ever seen

~stress~

2009-02-05T15:17:38Z

Bills

Bond Due

No Money

Need to Save for School

Need to Save for New House

Need to Move somehow

No Money coming in to Save

~stress stress stress~

ARGH

Why is it so damn hard to find a job with unemployment so high?!

deadly_asp @ 2009-01-29T04:00:00

2009-01-28T17:04:48Z

Sorry Mikey, I HAD too.

Dr.Who hair?

Oh, the inspiration http://www.ebaumsworld.com/pictures/view/25839/

31 days and getting frustrated

2009-01-28T14:29:53Z

Real Questions About Australia

These questions were posted on an Australian Tourism Web site and the answers are the actual responses by the web site officials, who obviously have a sense of humor.

* Q: Will I be able to see kangaroos in the street? (USA)
A: Depends how much you've been drinking.

* Q: Does it ever get windy in Australia? I have never seen it rain on TV, how do the plants grow? (UK.)
A: We import all plants fully grown and then just sit around watching them die.

* Q: I want to walk from Perth to Sydney - can I follow the railroad tracks? (Sweden)
A: Sure, it's only three thousand miles, take lots of water.

* Q: Is it safe to run around in the bushes in Australia? (Sweden)
A: So it's true what they say about Swedes.

* Q: Are there any ATMs (cash machines) in Australia? Can you send me a list of them in Brisbane, Cairns, Townsville and Hervey Bay? (UK)
A: What did your last slave die of?

* Q: Can you give me some information about hippo racing in Australia? (USA)
A: A-fri-ca is the big triangle-shaped continent south of //Europe//. Aus-tra-li-a is that big island in the middle of the Pacific which does not... oh forget it. Sure, the hippo racing is every Tuesday night in Kings Cross.

* Q: Which direction is North in Australia? (USA)
A: Face south and then turn 180 degrees. Contact us when you get here and we'll send the rest of the directions.

* Q: Can you send me the Vienna Boys' Choir schedule? (USA)
A: Aus-tri-a is that quaint little country bordering Ger-man-y, which is...oh forget it. Sure, the Vienna Boys Choir plays every Tuesday night in Kings Cross, straight after the hippo races.

* Q: Are there supermarkets in Sydney and is milk available all year round? (Germany)
A: No, we are a peaceful civilization of vegan hunter/gatherers. Milk is illegal.

* Q: Please send a list of all doctors in Australia who can dispense rattlesnake serum. (USA)
A: Rattlesnakes live in A-mer-i-ca which is where YOU come from. All Australian snakes are perfectly harmless, can be safely handled, and make good pets.

* Q: Can you tell me the regions in Tasmania where the female population is smaller than the male population? (Italy)
A: Yes, gay nightclubs

* Q: Do you celebrate Christmas in Australia? (France)
A: Only at Christmas.

* Q: Will I be able to speak English most places I go? (USA)
A: Yes, but you'll have to learn it first.

G’Day, mate!

Real Questions Asked of Librarians

"Do you have books here?"
"Do you have a list of all the books written in the English language?"
"Do you have a list of all the books I've ever read?"
"I'm looking for Robert James Waller's book, 'Waltzing through Grand Rapids'." (Actual title wanted: "Slow Waltz in Cedar Bend")
"Do you have that book by Rushdie: 'Satanic Nurses'?" (Actual title: "Satanic Verses")
"Where is the reference desk?" This was asked of a person sitting at a desk who had, hanging above her head, a sign saying "REFERENCE DESK"!
"I was here about three weeks ago looking at a cookbook that cost $39.95. Do you know which one it is?"
"Which outlets in the library are appropriate for my hairdryer?"
"Can you tell me why so many famous Civil War battles were fought on National Park sites?"
"Do you have any books with photographs of dinosaurs?"
"I need a color photograph of George Washington [Christopher Columbus, King Arthur, Moses, Socrates, etc.]"
"I need a photocopy of Booker T. Washington's birth certificate."
"I need to find out Ibid's first name for my bibliography."
"Why don't you have any books by Ibid? He's written a lot of important stuff."
"I'm looking for information on carpal tunnel syndrome. I think I'm having trouble with it in my neck."
"Is the basement upstairs?" (Asked at First Floor Reference Desk)
"I am looking for a list of laws that I can break that would send me back to jail for a couple of months."

Writer's Block: So Long, Farewell

2009-01-19T17:50:05Z

It's the last day in office for George Bush. There's been a lot of talk in the media lately about Bush's legacy. What do you think he will be most remembered for?

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Fucking up, Royally...That and being the butt of morejokes than Scots, Irish, Lawyers, and Blonds combined.

42..

2009-01-19T01:56:19Z

Managed to drag my carcass to the doctors, Dr.Bridge was on leave but even though he was booked solid Dr.Popp (you heard me, POPP) squeezed me in.

Its probably strep throat and gastro...but if with all the meds he prescribed im not better n say, 24 hours, I have to go to Casualty...Because it could very will be the virus has finally reared its ugly head and has started attacking my body :'(

Ugh...It's too hot for this shit

EDIT: I took the 2 penicillin, 2 of the tablets for gastro, and have had 3 doses of gastrolite (which may smell like delicious blackcurrant but tastes FOUL) and slept for a few hours, im feeling a little better

43 days and getting antsy...

2009-01-18T05:30:49Z

Well, I am SICK, Not just oh my how icky sick I mean OH DEAR GODS WTF!

Headache
Temperature
Dizziness
Lightheaded
Throwing up
Swollen sore throat
Cant keep food down
And the less said about the rest of my digestive track the better.

But, I dragged myself to a shower, and somehow (its a blur) got myself to the IGA and bought some salada crackers, mint tea, and some ginger beer, that and the nurofen should help...I hope.

Oh, and on another note, the Library FINALLY emailed me.

"Were sorry, but regarding the position you have applied for, you do not hold the necessary experience or qualifications."

Times 3 for all the positions.

Now that's just BULLSHIT! I have a bachelor degree in English and Communication(Professional Writing), how could I NOT? ~sigh~

Whatever, I've kinda given up on getting any kind of employment, Like my parents before me, it seems I'm destined to stay a jobless, struggling for rent and food, centerlink defendant bum my whole life.

Writer's Block: Tricky Questions

2009-01-13T11:43:53Z

What is your first reaction when someone says "I need to talk to you"?

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In a partner? "Oh fuck, im getting dumped"

Anybody eles? "Im in trouble

My mother?

"DANGER DANGER DANGER"

Enough said

2008-12-29T04:53:49Z

>.>

2008-12-27T08:11:34Z

Dig on this:

Boys in drag

and drown me in Strawberry Jam

Mashed potatoes, where's the gravy baby?

chewing burgers of canned ham

http://www.pangloss.com/seidel/Poem/

Story of Xmas in my life

2008-12-27T06:17:25Z

Little Sister:

Blackberry (New Version)
Nintendo Wii+Games and extra remote
Various knick knacks
Chocolate
bought Hiptop for her ex-gf

Me:
Rip off CK fragrance
3 T-shirts 3 times too big (Salvols)
Choclate
My sisters old phone

I know presents don't matter, and that as always mum spoils her to keep her mentally stable (for her level anyway) and such, but a lifetime of bitter Christmases as a kid is a hard habit to break

Being the middle child SUCKS

Wow...

2008-12-13T03:01:14Z

Yesterday marked ONE YEAR since Mikey and I became a couple.

It feels kind of surreal.

For starters I have never been with anybody for as long, ever. In all my previous relationships (that I remember) I can see clearly that it will eventually end, as much as I've tried to fool myself or work hard at it for the sake of not being alone (usually with horrible consequences). But with Mikey its always been different, I can't see a reason to why it would ever end, and I'm not going to complain.

We've been through a hell of alot together. His uni/work stresses, my homelessness/money issues, Disease, and now Separation, and you know what? Anybody else and I probably would of given up, I'm notorious for it, but nothing life has thrown at both of us this year, or anything else that might come will make me give up on us, I love him a fuckload too much for that!

Yeah it has been hard not having him here, especially on our one year, and the medical shit I been through last few weeks, but we had a really long, kinda deep, video chat last night, where a lot of things were said on both sides that made us both really happy, usually getting him to open up to that level is like pulling teeth but not last night, and vice versa. (Still cant get him to tell me what he likes/wants more of in bed....hes too shy...its cute)

So all in all, despite being apart, despite blood disease, despite stress, money issues, and nerve damage. I'm fucking ecstatic.

deadly_asp @ 2008-11-28T18:37:00

2008-11-28T07:39:35Z

fuckercunt ass cock balls shit bitchtitties

it never rains but it pours

it seems i have damaged nerve/s in my soulder/neck somehow and the right side of my body, esspeciaally my arm and hand are going dead

im atm waiting for my specilist to call to tell me a bed hasbeen freed for me

fuck spelling im typing left handed because i cant even tie my own shoes let alone typoe

Urge to Gaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaame.........

2008-11-22T21:14:05Z

I think I am becoming a borg-like geek

I'm having over-whelming urges to D&D...once a month with Karl and Adams group is just not cutting it! I need my fix!

I've always been a roleplayer, from old telnet RP's way back when to RP on the MMORPG's, I'm a writer, and an RPG fan in general, so D&D was a natural progression I guess.

Whats worse is having read so much about it....I have taken it to a new level..

I want to LARP....

~shame~

If you dont know what that means, look it up, and laugh at my geeky shame!