Balance, I need to find my balance again, I've been with him for so long I cant remember how to portion out my life without him in it. Routine is a bitch I guess, my life's been turned upside down and I need to re-sort the pieces, and It's proving a daunting task. 

Job starts Monday, both nervous and excited.

Been trying to force myself back into writing and drawing, I miss being creative.

Moved back to Carnegie, and I don't actually mind that much, I love the area, I have heaps of fun with the guys/katie and I know Mikey dosen't like being at his parents, but at least he's studying and we're not tripping over each other everyday, so it could be worse, he could be in Japan still!

Been throwing together some random writing lately, nothing worth presenting, it's still mostly in my incredibly vacant skull. I'm slowly getting back into the habit of earlier years *cough*uni*cough* where I usually tried to write at least something everyday. Keep an eye out for something soon, I swear I'll put something random up.

As for employment *sigh* I only really have one thing to say on the matter

FUCKING FUCK THE COCKING TWATFLAP HOSPITALITY BULLSHIT

Yeah I don't mind making coffee, fuck, I downright enjoy it sometimes, but the industry is bullshit, the job market is horrible, and everybody wants FASTER, and BETTER, no matter how good you actually are, they want better. To be honest I'm sick of being told the job skill I have been training, improving, and working on very hard for the past oh, lets see, SEVEN YEARS, is not good enough compared to some cocking wanker in Hugesdale who has only JUST completed a six day short course!

AAAAAAAANYWAY

I've been looking into other areas that either corrospond to my actual degree, or interest me in general, heres some thing I came up with

Pathology (Bloodtaking etc) - I'm in there often enough! (Pity the consession price of the course is eighteen hundred dollars!)

Desktop Publishing - I touched on it a little back at Uni, I didn't mind it. Sent away for some info on a Graphic Design and Desktop Publishing course

Ok, and dont laugh....Interior Design....Which interests me, but its very expensive and a saturated market...and I'd more only want to do things I personally like, so I'd be fucked.

If anybody even reads this anymore, send in your votes or suggestions, what do YOU think I should be doing???
 

mood: awake music: Moonlight Sonata - Beehtoven, betch!

Bond stuff is pretty much sorted. Yay.

Now just need to find a way to actually MOVE.

Spent the day mostely chilling out with Tom, got a iced coffee, were major nerds talking about D&D for hours.

Chris has gastro or something similar, poor guy.

Muuuuuuust geeeeeet joooooob

Spent yesterday hanging out with Jo, poor woman. Kids to feed wedding in a few weeks, she got fired by the c*nts at Brown Bean, the owners are selling her house, her loan was denyed and so were the credit cards.

Not much else going on, still got a creative block (Nothing New)

Fuck I just want to sleep the next ten days so that BAM he's home >.<

mood: anxious

It's Valentines day today, and without Mikey here I just don't see the point in marking the day, so screw it.

Had an appointment with my hospital social worker yesterday, and saw the ID clinic's dietitian as well.

My social worker is trying all she can to find a way for me to cover the bond on the new place, the stress is making my health far worse (or so my doctor says) and with a condition like mine I cannot afford to let my otherwise adequate health slip one bit!

My dietitian was NOT impressed when we went through and defined my eating habits and diet. I'm now on strict orders to define regular eating times and sleeping times, and I quote "You've lost almost ten kilos in a month, if you don't do this and start gaining it back, I WILL admit you here and put you on a strict diet" I would really rather NOT go back into hospital for who knows how long, So I'm gonna do what she has suggested *cough* ordered *cough*

One of those being powdered milk, its cost effective and surprisingly, doesn't taste too bad if you make it up in advance like I did.

I find myself focusing more and more on the Fires destroying who knows how many peoples homes since my own sister and nieces lost everything in the fires. I know my sister Julie and I have never really seen eye to eye, but shes still my sister.

The move is coming nearer and gets more complicated every freaking day, I simply DON'T know where I am going to find this extra bond money, the stress keeps me up at night. No loan officer in their right mind would give an unemployed student a loan of any description, and if it is not done soon, Mikey and Meg will be on the streets. I don't care if that is where I end up, I've been there numerous times, but I flat out refuse to drag Mikey down with me, he deserves better.

With all this shit happening I can even bring myself to study, I just cannot concentrate on it no matter how much I know I should.

mood: So very Stressed

Bills

Bond Due

No Money

Need to Save for School

Need to Save for New House

Need to Move somehow

No Money coming in to Save

~stress stress stress~

ARGH

Why is it so damn hard to find a job with unemployment so high?!

Sorry Mikey, I HAD too.

 Dr.Who hair?

Oh, the inspiration http://www.ebaumsworld.com/pictures/view/25839/